An Opportunity Awakes! (a new band!?)

I will soon be filling in on drums for a while for a band that my friend is trying to start.

The music he writes is exactly what I've been wanting to play, and I'm thrilled to be a part of it.

However, Apathetic Critic will always be top priority. In no way am I considering leaving the band in pursuit of this new one. Avery and Jeremy are my bros for life and I wouldn't let them down like that.

Nicole Lynne (Where Have You Been?)

• I've been listening to the La Dispute album obsessively for the past 3 days and can't stop.
  
• I got my hair cut today by this little mexican lady who gives really good head massages.
  
• I've been missing Nikki like crazy but she comes homes tomorrow and we're gonna ring in the new year together :)
  
• I got new Levi jeans that are dyed brown-not sure how i feel about them...
  
• I'm reading three books right now "Of Mice and Men", "The Ishbane Conspiracy", and "Jesus Wants To Save Christians"
  
• I bought The Price Is Right and Uno for my iTouch last night and stayed up 'til 2 playing them (bad move)
  
• I wish Desaparcidos was still a band
  
• I finished writing lyrics to a new AC song last night. It's titled "Dig Your Own Grave" 
  
• I feel GOOD.
  

Monotheism

22Paul then stood up in the meeting of the Areopagus and said: "Men of Athens! I see that in every way you are very religious. 23For as I walked around and looked carefully at your objects of worship, I even found an altar with this inscription: TO AN UNKNOWN GOD. Now what you worship as something unknown I am going to proclaim to you.

24"The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by hands. 25And he is not served by human hands, as if he needed anything, because he himself gives all men life and breath and everything else. 26From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live. 27God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us. 28'For in him we live and move and have our being.' As some of your own poets have said, 'We are his offspring.'

29"Therefore since we are God's offspring, we should not think that the divine being is like gold or silver or stone—an image made by man's design and skill. 30In the past God overlooked such ignorance, but now he commands all people everywhere to repent. 31For he has set a day when he will judge the world with justice by the man he has appointed. He has given proof of this to all men by raising him from the dead." [NIV]

Tired

I'm so tired.
Tired of being the same.
Tired of fading in.
Tired of sticking out.
I want to be different, but don't know how.
It's never as easy as it seems.
Although that's what I'm told.
I'm so young wishing I was so old.
Feeling stuck and trapped with no where to go.
Wishing I had a place to call my own.
It seems like I never get things right.
It seems like I always complain.
I have no clue what I'm doing.
Where I'm going.
What I want.



I love my family.
I love my friends.
I love my God.
I have a home.
Parnets who care.
Siblings who care.
An amazing girl friend who's always there.
A church that supports.
A talent I can own.
A life that's well worth living.
I want to stick out.
I want to be different.
I want to be tired.

in my mind

i've got all these songs in my head,

all these emotions and words that i want to put into music

and share it but i can't all because i can't play guitar...

why's life gotta be so cruel?

...this is not an emo blog. i'm being for real. haha.

Triple Bi-Pass

I was just informed my grandpa has to get  triple bi-pass heart surgery tomorrow.

keep him in your prayers.

Adolescence

I feel like a sunday choir

singing my own eulogy

From a whisper on your couch

to the words in your mouth

they come pouring out without

a single reflection. did you mean

it when you said it? do you say it just for attention?

i need the truth, cause it seems to me,

that we're stuck inside a play,

with no changing scenes, yeah were stuck inside

a world with no changing seasons, and i know there's

gotta be a valid reason

 for your busy schedule,

and your to-do list

but if I'm at the bottom,

i'd rather just not be on it...

Pardon My Persistence

Lately I've been thinking a lot about time...

what is it? why is it? where can I get more?

have you ever thought if God sees time?

he wouldn't right? I mean, why would he?

I need more time. Things will settle down,

we'll figure it out, 

this is just all part of a relationship right?

I hope so...

The Surplus

I just finished watching the least episode of The Office on nbc.com and if you missed it last week like I did, I suggest you go watch it now, because it's hilarious!

Exactly

recently I stumbled across a video of the pastor Rob Bell. It's called "Shells" and it's number 20 in his nooma DVD series. It's crazy sometimes how life works or I guess even more crazy, how God works. This video of his that I did not even intend to see was the exact thing that I've been needing to. I've hit some rough patches recently in my current relationship because of how busy we are, and that's exactly what this video was about. He tells a story of how him and his family are at the beach and they're picking up sea shells when all the sudden they see a giant star fish bobbing in the water. One of his sons runs out to get it, and after many attempts he gives up. When they ask him why he can't get it, he says "because my hands are full of shells". So often in life we get wrapped up in doing things and constantly on the move that we have no time to stop and reflect on why we do things. We rush through things and by doing that we rob ourselves of the experience of life, all the while we think we are experiencing it. I'm going to be as bold as to challenge you to stop and think. Really just think about "Why?". Because...that's exactly what we need.

GET PUMPED!

Tonight i'm going tosee this aweome band....

these guys are cool too.

A E I O U

Lately I've been thinking a lot about my faith and how it makes me different from others.
On Sunday the pastor told a story of how he was out at the movies and heard these girls talking about the nastiest things and the terrible language they used. What if that had been me?
I would have felt terrible. So, then I ask myself again, What makes me different?
I'm supposed to be, right? the Bible says that if Christ lives in you others will trip over you like a cornerstone, meaning that you won't fit in with them. So what makes me the cornerstone? The block that doesn't fit? I'm working on it. I don't want to fit.

He also talked about how Christians seem to not realize that once you're saved Jesus is in you. If we truly believed that we wouldn't do half the things we do. He said "It's like inviting Jesus with you to sin." he's right.

I know not everyone who reads this is a Christian, but i have to write these things. It's ventilation.

I Hate to Say I Told You So...

So recently we had to get rid of our old PC due to pop-up viruses that failed to go away after spending hundreds of dollars on anti-virus software...So I told my dad "Let's not get a PC because frankly they're terrible, and always vaulnerable to viruses." he thought I had new clue what I was talking about and bought a Sony Vaio Desktop PC. Despite it looking very nice and having an awesome keyboard, it crashed today...a total of 5 days after the purchase....
I Hate to Say I Told You So...