An Opportunity Awakes! (a new band!?)

I will soon be filling in on drums for a while for a band that my friend is trying to start.

The music he writes is exactly what I've been wanting to play, and I'm thrilled to be a part of it.

However, Apathetic Critic will always be top priority. In no way am I considering leaving the band in pursuit of this new one. Avery and Jeremy are my bros for life and I wouldn't let them down like that.

Nicole Lynne (Where Have You Been?)

• I've been listening to the La Dispute album obsessively for the past 3 days and can't stop.
  
• I got my hair cut today by this little mexican lady who gives really good head massages.
  
• I've been missing Nikki like crazy but she comes homes tomorrow and we're gonna ring in the new year together :)
  
• I got new Levi jeans that are dyed brown-not sure how i feel about them...
  
• I'm reading three books right now "Of Mice and Men", "The Ishbane Conspiracy", and "Jesus Wants To Save Christians"
  
• I bought The Price Is Right and Uno for my iTouch last night and stayed up 'til 2 playing them (bad move)
  
• I wish Desaparcidos was still a band
  
• I finished writing lyrics to a new AC song last night. It's titled "Dig Your Own Grave" 
  
• I feel GOOD.
  

Monotheism

22Paul then stood up in the meeting of the Areopagus and said: "Men of Athens! I see that in every way you are very religious. 23For as I walked around and looked carefully at your objects of worship, I even found an altar with this inscription: TO AN UNKNOWN GOD. Now what you worship as something unknown I am going to proclaim to you.

24"The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by hands. 25And he is not served by human hands, as if he needed anything, because he himself gives all men life and breath and everything else. 26From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live. 27God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us. 28'For in him we live and move and have our being.' As some of your own poets have said, 'We are his offspring.'

29"Therefore since we are God's offspring, we should not think that the divine being is like gold or silver or stone—an image made by man's design and skill. 30In the past God overlooked such ignorance, but now he commands all people everywhere to repent. 31For he has set a day when he will judge the world with justice by the man he has appointed. He has given proof of this to all men by raising him from the dead." [NIV]

Tired

I'm so tired.
Tired of being the same.
Tired of fading in.
Tired of sticking out.
I want to be different, but don't know how.
It's never as easy as it seems.
Although that's what I'm told.
I'm so young wishing I was so old.
Feeling stuck and trapped with no where to go.
Wishing I had a place to call my own.
It seems like I never get things right.
It seems like I always complain.
I have no clue what I'm doing.
Where I'm going.
What I want.



I love my family.
I love my friends.
I love my God.
I have a home.
Parnets who care.
Siblings who care.
An amazing girl friend who's always there.
A church that supports.
A talent I can own.
A life that's well worth living.
I want to stick out.
I want to be different.
I want to be tired.

in my mind

i've got all these songs in my head,

all these emotions and words that i want to put into music

and share it but i can't all because i can't play guitar...

why's life gotta be so cruel?

...this is not an emo blog. i'm being for real. haha.

Triple Bi-Pass

I was just informed my grandpa has to get  triple bi-pass heart surgery tomorrow.

keep him in your prayers.

Adolescence

I feel like a sunday choir

singing my own eulogy

From a whisper on your couch

to the words in your mouth

they come pouring out without

a single reflection. did you mean

it when you said it? do you say it just for attention?

i need the truth, cause it seems to me,

that we're stuck inside a play,

with no changing scenes, yeah were stuck inside

a world with no changing seasons, and i know there's

gotta be a valid reason

 for your busy schedule,

and your to-do list

but if I'm at the bottom,

i'd rather just not be on it...

Pardon My Persistence

Lately I've been thinking a lot about time...

what is it? why is it? where can I get more?

have you ever thought if God sees time?

he wouldn't right? I mean, why would he?

I need more time. Things will settle down,

we'll figure it out, 

this is just all part of a relationship right?

I hope so...

The Surplus

I just finished watching the least episode of The Office on nbc.com and if you missed it last week like I did, I suggest you go watch it now, because it's hilarious!

Exactly

recently I stumbled across a video of the pastor Rob Bell. It's called "Shells" and it's number 20 in his nooma DVD series. It's crazy sometimes how life works or I guess even more crazy, how God works. This video of his that I did not even intend to see was the exact thing that I've been needing to. I've hit some rough patches recently in my current relationship because of how busy we are, and that's exactly what this video was about. He tells a story of how him and his family are at the beach and they're picking up sea shells when all the sudden they see a giant star fish bobbing in the water. One of his sons runs out to get it, and after many attempts he gives up. When they ask him why he can't get it, he says "because my hands are full of shells". So often in life we get wrapped up in doing things and constantly on the move that we have no time to stop and reflect on why we do things. We rush through things and by doing that we rob ourselves of the experience of life, all the while we think we are experiencing it. I'm going to be as bold as to challenge you to stop and think. Really just think about "Why?". Because...that's exactly what we need.

GET PUMPED!

Tonight i'm going tosee this aweome band....

these guys are cool too.

A E I O U

Lately I've been thinking a lot about my faith and how it makes me different from others.
On Sunday the pastor told a story of how he was out at the movies and heard these girls talking about the nastiest things and the terrible language they used. What if that had been me?
I would have felt terrible. So, then I ask myself again, What makes me different?
I'm supposed to be, right? the Bible says that if Christ lives in you others will trip over you like a cornerstone, meaning that you won't fit in with them. So what makes me the cornerstone? The block that doesn't fit? I'm working on it. I don't want to fit.

He also talked about how Christians seem to not realize that once you're saved Jesus is in you. If we truly believed that we wouldn't do half the things we do. He said "It's like inviting Jesus with you to sin." he's right.

I know not everyone who reads this is a Christian, but i have to write these things. It's ventilation.

I Hate to Say I Told You So...

So recently we had to get rid of our old PC due to pop-up viruses that failed to go away after spending hundreds of dollars on anti-virus software...So I told my dad "Let's not get a PC because frankly they're terrible, and always vaulnerable to viruses." he thought I had new clue what I was talking about and bought a Sony Vaio Desktop PC. Despite it looking very nice and having an awesome keyboard, it crashed today...a total of 5 days after the purchase....
I Hate to Say I Told You So...

Doctors

I'm getting really sick of all these stupid plastic surgery shows.
one in particular--the Doctors.
It's actually on right now, and this episode is all about changing your body to get rid of your insecurities. Which is nice that they won't be insecure anymore, but why were they in the first place? they're all beautiful people, and I can't even see what wrong with them. This one girl had some of her gums removed because she thought her teeth were too small. Another got surgery so that she'd be taller because she though she was too short...
I don't get why people can't just except themselves...

Kanye Gets an F

I don't know if you saw the AMA's last night, but if you did you saw Kanye West give a very odd speech, while wearing a very odd fur tail...I did however like his message. He spoke about breaking down barriers in music, crossing the lines of stereotypes and redefining music altogether. I'm all for that, and honestly, in the main stream realm that needs to happen--and soon.
So this morning I went and bought the new Kanye album. Listened to it. And now I am utterly confused. It seems like in his attempt to "re-define" music, he lost his taste. I was expecting to hear a little bit of Lockdown in every song but instead you get this weird cross over between T-Pain and Hellogoodbye. I think he's got good motives, but he definitely missed the mark.

New!

today was awesome!
Went over to Nikki's and we found a bunch of new stuff we can do that doesn't involve electronics.
We made art out of construction paper, made a picture frame, and did splatter painting and graffiti/stencil art.
Pretty much the coolest ever!
Friday we're gonna start reading a new book together. Last one we read was "Tuesdays with Morrie"
This time were reading "Jesus wants to save Christians" by Rob Bell.
Doing new things is fun.

I am currently at the La dispute show.
Def. Plex was sick but these other bands...not so much.
Hopefully La Dispute will make it better. :)

girlsss...

So, call me a creeper but, today jer and I went to the KLAA Pom Competition to watch our gf's (lolz) and there was this girl there who added avery on myspace a little while back and her default pic has her and her friend topless turned around and in their underware...so I was in the company of a girl who i had seen in her underware...weird....

Q

Go see this

Go Buy This

Page France "Hello, Dear Wind"

MI

Well - California was great except one thing - I couldn't breathe! The air conditions were terrible because of the fires that were spreading around. When my dad and I landed in Detroit, we both let out a simultaneous "ahhhh". I'm starting to appreciate the MI weather a little more than I have previously.

Home-Where I Wanted To Go-Home

When ever I go to California, I really feel like I'm at home. Staying at my grandmass house is a great feeling. The smell, the cowboy/cowgirl decor, even the feel of the carpet-everything just fits.

It feels really good to see my sister again! We started to become best friends right when she had to leave so it's great to catch back up. Today we're goin to hangout at her shcool and then to Hunnington beach. It's gonna be awesome!

Jump On The Bandwaggon!

I recently have gotten addicted toRelevant Magazine's Podcast.
If yo enjoy sarcasm and intellegent humor, you will love it to.
you can subscribe on iTunes fo' free! it's awesome.

Dec.4th! Manchester Orchestra! So frickin excited, and it better be good cuz we dropped out of BHS BOTB to go, so...better be good.

Coldplay's new EP comes out Nov.25th which is going to be awesome! they're phenominal.

Thursday I leave for Californiaaaa (here we come!)--that's a Phantom Planet refference--I can't wait to see Bethany and my relatives out there. And In'N'Out is always a plus ;)

school is overwhelming, once agan, and it's driving me crazy....but life goes on.

We All Deserve Something

I realize it's all the same
in the end
where you go is where you're gonna stay
so I wanna know, if i am saved.
Am I saved? Am I saved?
Where I'm going's where I'm gonna stay
Am I saved? Am I saved?
Because I'm tired,
of living, this way....


totally inspired by the end of "I Can Barely Beathe"
by Manchester Orchestra

i'm such a republican...

LEAVE HEALTH CARE ALONE!
the government won't fix our problems!

Let It Snow, Let It Snow, Let It Snow

I can't wait for Christmas! Seeing the snow outside totally pumped me up for it.
I really can't stand thanksgiving though. Not because I'm not thankful for things but because all you do is sit at home, and aren't aloud to go anywhere just because your mother is making dinner that won't be served until 7 o'clock. And I know that it's a day of thanks, but who the heck sits around all day just being thankful for everything!? Any who, Bring on the winter, cause I'm pumped this year!

Moving On

I deleted my last blog because Scott brought it to my attention that it was an ignorant thing to say. Here's how I feel about the outcome of the election: Congratulations Obama. I'm not going to be fighting for McCain or for the republicans anymore. We lost and that's obvious, so I accknowledge that and move on. I'm hearing too many people still fight about it and making claims about how Barack is better than McCain or vis versa, and it doesn't matter! it's over.

If we keep trying to debate it, we'll get no where and it will only make things worse. I am dissapointed that he will be my president, but bottom line is, He is. So I'll respect him and pray for him, and more importantly, pray for the people of this country.

I myself am still tempted to make remarks about Obama, but that's just because I'm a sore loser. But please, just stop disbuting what's done with and move on.

on an unrelated note-please take the time to listen to the band Why? they're awesome.

My Sister's Awesome

It's Not So Much...

I'm not too disappointed about Barack being the president, i mean I am but I'll get over that. What's worse is that Proposal 2 passed. I just don't understand people. I think this country made a HUGE mistake, and we're about to see it unfold right before our eyes.

For those of you who voted for him, hey atleast you voted. and congratulations, you won. But I hope you did the right thing...

Where's The Line?

I'm finding it incredibly hard to find the line between a calling and a selfish desire. I've struggled with this for a long time. And, it's a shame that I feel ashamed to tell the guys, cuz i wish they'd understand, but I 'm not sure they will. It's not that I want to abandon them, I just feel called to do something else, and it just happens that I also want to do what I feel called to. I never thought it would be so hard to be honest...and honestly I'm sick of doing something I don't like. and quite frankly, I'm sick of the attitude. I should be able to do and express myself in ways I want. I just wish they wouldn't take it so personally.

"It’s easy to hear this voice
It’s easy to turn it off
It's easy to make this choice
It's easy to turn yourself off "

-Showbread

Open Up Your Eyes

Coldplay was amazing last night! They opened their set with "Life in Technicolor" an instrumental intro to their latest album Viva la Vida, and there was an instant boom of energy in the room! That energy defiantly lasted all night. The best part of the whole show however was during the middle of their set they all start to run off the stage and head our way. I look to my left and see there is another stage with 4 acoustic guitars sitting no more than 10 feet away! I flipped out! (I swear to God I'm such a girl.) From there they played the scientist and they're drummer sang a cover song. It was seriously the most amazing show I've ever been to.

Chris Martin is one the best showmen I've ever seen perform and he had great add-libbing skills. For instance is the song Politic, he says "Give me us, don't give me them, Give me Kid Rock and Eminem" or in God Put a Smile on Your Face, he says "I've gotta say, I'm on my way, to mo-town" hahaha. It was great.

For those who are not too fond of Coldplay, that's alright, it's your loss ;) But the coolest thing about their live performance is that they really do they're best to make everyone feel a part of something, and that's pretty hard to do when there's 1500+ people, but they accomplish it. I suggest you open up your eyes, and your mind and take a good listen. I think you'll come around.

Things are looking up for me

AC wrote two new songs that are pointing more towards the direction that I've been wanting to go. More of an indie/folk sound, and one song that's almost a mirror of Weezer/BNL. I'm starting to learn to have patience and to talk things out. When you keep it to your self, it'll just pull you down. Althoguh, the songs still aren't exactly where I want to be, they're getting there. And I got to remember that it's a team sport. However, I am still very interested in making my own music. Ahh, how one can only dream.

...And They Were All Yellow!

Today is a good day.

Haters: SUCK BRICK!

tomorrow!

Coldplay @ The Palace of Auburn Hills

Bottom Line.

Think what you may, and decide as you will, but here's what it comes down to:
This nation was built on Christian priciples wether you like it or not.
And our forefathers want it to stay that way. It's the way it was intended to be!
Thefore, we need a leader who values life and values morals.
The reason for someone to not value life is because of a lack of morals.
A ton of people argue that an issue like abortion should not lead you to decide how to vote, but I say, of course it is! It's a human life, a future american! a child. I would never in a million years, for any reason under the sun, wish to have a leader who was not going to value that life.

Now I know, you're probablly all like "shut up! you know nothing you're only 15...blah blah blah..." Well, that's rediculous. As an american citizen I have the right to have an opinion, and you can take my word for it, I know a ton of about I'm talking about. Not to sound condesending, but probablly a lot more than some kids our age. I know that I can't vote, but I can't help but be passionate about it. It's my life that these men will be affecting!

I just pray to God, that we elect a leader who has value of life. And if the wrong person gets elected than let God's will be done. Our days are running short and I'm ready to go home.

In My Opinion

Music's fails when there's no passion in it. Sing about something real. Something that's got meaning and relates to life today.

1. Bright Eyes
2. Manchester Orchestra
3. Brandnew (devil and God are raging inside of me brandnew)
4. Brandi Carlile
5. Coulour Revolt
6. Spoon
7. Johnny Cash

Halleluja

I don't typically enjoy female singers, but Brandi Carlile is amazing. Seriously, go check her out.
and when you do, listen to her cover of Halleluja by Jeff Buckley.

Oh! and here's some more of my feelings in song form:

That's not passion if it's got no soul
when I wake up in the morning, shaking and cold
before my feet hit the floor I have more passion in my breath
than you've ever put into a song, and I suggest
you find a new way to do it, cause i might not stay
but leaving sounds just way too easy.

There's a bullet in the gun.

Is it alright to do this?
can we be forgiven if we ask?
I'll pull the peices together
and we'll finish our task.
Because I started all of this
and I will end it too.
Dear God give me the stength
and tell me what to do.

Dear Scott Nelson,

WHATEVER!
:]

And so it is.

So, today is mine and Nikki's three year "anniversary". I know that's the proper word for it but it makes us sound too old. Yesterday we celebrated by spending the day in ann arbor and getting dinner down there. It's funny when we do those things though because my mom just sits in the car and listens to the radio for like 3 hours! haha. I seriously wouldn't trade it for the world though. She's the best and means everything to me. There's many more years to come!

:]

3 fricken years...

And it never gets old!

I Want to See It

Saturday's show was by far one of the funnest shows we've played in a long time. Between the kid in the sheep costume and the guy dressed up as the Liberty Mutual Diabetis man, it was hilarious! We've been doing some talking lately and we're starting to really figure out what we want to do with our music. For so long we've had one mind set and one style of writing, and we're ready to change a little. I'm stoked.

Been listening to a lot of Colour Revolt latley. Most likely you'll see influences in our new stuff. If you don't have their new album, go get it. It's way better than Copeland!

A Vacation

I've been dreaming so dark
black and white pigments in your skin
shows me you've been cheating
not on me but in the game we're in.

I had a dream I killed your family
there blood was black and white
No pigment in my skin
showed me something wasn't right

So give me a technicolor dream
a beam of hope, a light to see
your georgeous green eyes
another reason to believe
in black and white
It's not perfect, but I sleep just fine.

And I had a dream you killed my family
there blood; the darkest red.
the pigment in my skin; the color that I dread
shows me something isn't right
but that may just be fine.
It's not perfect, but I sleep alright.

Doctor, Doctor!

if you want to be paranoid about every little thing, watch this show.

SUPER!

ADDICTING.

Nostalgic

Last night I listend to: Panic!at the Disco(when they still had the !), Fall Out Boy, Waking Ashland, Simple Plan, Silverstein, and Senses Fail...I relaize all of those bands are terrible, but it took me back. Back when I was always afriad of getting beat up, when I was changing girl friends each week, and taking money from my mother's purse to buy clothes from Hollister, ahhh yes. Those were the days...

Busy!

1. School 9:00 - 2:00
2. Drum Lesson 2:00 - 3:00
3. iPod Appointment 4:00 - 4:30
4. Nikki's House 5:00-10:00

It feels good to do something for once. Today's going to be productive, I can feel it in the air.

by the way! I got the Manchester Orchestra EP/DVD last night and I reccomend everyone go get! I got mine from Record Time in Roseville. I'm in love.

Sympathy for the Martyr

The price some people pay for their religion is incredible...

Taliban gunmen kill Christian aid worker in Kabul (AP)
AP - Taliban gunmen killed a Christian aid worker in Kabul as she was walking to work on Monday, and the militant group said it targeted the woman because she was spreading her religion.

Stop! Take Some Time To Think!

Britney Spears gets divorced, goes crazy, shaves her head, loses her kids, her 16 yr.old sister gets pregnant, then she goes to "re-hab" and now is rolling around naked in a steam room singing about how Guys only want to have sex.
WHAT THE HECK!

Yesterday!

Yesterday was aweomse. The show went really well, except the headline position kind of worked against us in terms of having new people listen to us...oh well.

Today however, is not my day. I'm doing school, Nikki can't hangout and I just spilled Arizona Green Tea all down the front of me. shoot me.

...Down.

I seem to be down on my luck lately. This month started out really good...I don't know what happened. Any who, when I get in these moods here's what gets me through. I recommend you listen to all of these:

• Parachutes by Coldplay
• Gimme Fiction by Spoon
• HOME Vol. 4 by Bright Eyes & Spoon
• Digital Ash in a Digital Urn by Bright Eyes
• Brother, Sister by mewithoutYou

Some other great albums to listen to:

• First Came the Law by Once Nothing
• Hope For the Best But Prepare for the Worst by Saints Never Surrender
• I'm Like a Virgin Losing a Child by Manchester Orchestra
• First Impressions of Earth by The Strokes

I had the wonderful opportunity to finally see my all time favorite band earlier this month, Showbread. All you haters out there can shove it! And the leaves are falling off the trees which is sad in some kind of metaphoric/symbolic way...but it's still a pretty sight.

I recommend reading Save Me From Myself by Brian "Head" Welch, the ex-guitarist of Korn. It's basically about how he went from demented to redeemed. Excellent story and an awesome testimony.

Someone tell me why I feel so down

I got nothing to lose and nothing to prove

just a broken heart and a hole in my shoe

write me a song of hope

that allows me to belong

and we can all be Friends and we'll all sing
along

oh tell me how to feel

show me something real.

Me.

I see this going no where,
Your lips tremble at the very thought.
You say we're in it together.
But the truth is that we're not,
and I think you know.
I think you know.

I have a burning passion,
to paint a picture and call it my own.
My very heart and soul
poured out in ink for you.
sign my name and press my thumb print
no one else will have the same.
But you have your agenda
and no one can play your game
because you always win,
you always win.

This never was what I want,
Disrespect and a shaking hand.
Just replace me, it's just that easy.
so I can go my seperate ways
and I think I'll change,
I think I'll change.

NOPE

Mmmm...Bacon.

Once again I woke up late, but it was worth it.
I made a huge breakfast. Bacon, Eggs, and Waffles.
It was probablly the best thing to ever happen to me...today.
Yesterday Nikki and I had a mini Office Marathon. Best show ever.

My sister just recently turned 21 and yesterday I discovered a half empty
bottle of Sky Vodka in the freezer....
BRING BACK PROHIBITION!

Crazzzyy

This is Dope

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H7Eby4PSVcw

I Can Feel A Hot One!

I just bought Manchester Orchestra's new EP/DVD. I'm stoked.
December 4th seems so far away. Go listen to them, www.myspace.com/manchesterorchestra

Have We Lost Our Minds?

it's the constant bracing shock of now,
it's the whole damn world turned inside out, alright.
-Kevin Devine


It's 12:06 and instead of doing school I'm blogging,
and I'm about to go shower.
Home school life is so tough....

If only I could...

it's not that I don't like it, I just want to do it my way.
my own words, my own songs.

i guess we can't always get what we want...

Eagle Eye

So today I had to go and get inspired by a few of my favorite artists. One of which is:

Josh Porter (dies) of Showbread- Gotta be one of my all time favorite frontmen. He's got this energy and spunk that you dont see in too many other artists. Plus he's got a super experimental sound. I tuned on Dead by Dawn and screamed my heart out. Now I got a sore throat. Raw Rock Kills!

by the way, Go see this movie:

HOORAH!

America is a mess.

But it's the best.

That what I got to say.

Stranger with the Door Key-Explaining I'm Just Visiting.

Music that's keeping me sane during a 102 question algebra exam:

1. Postal Service- Give Up
2. Death Cab For Cutie- Plans
3. Death Cab For Cutie- Narrow Stairs
4. Watashi Wa- Eager Seas
5. Copeland- Eat, Sleep, Repeat

I Eat the World, and Defecate the Shell.

You Down?!

...And!

I'm Looking a little better today!

Ahhhh, Michigan!

"If the lakes took, The place of the sea, If the cars drove themselves, Way to be! Opposite the trains moving in, Rivers run interstate, Michigan!"

- Sufjan Stevens, "Say Yes! to M!ch!gan!"

Every year that I live here in Michigan I slowly but surely start to love it more and more. Fall is by far my favorite season, and today is a great fall day, therefore I am in a good mood.

I put on my jeans, white t, and a cardigan along with my moccasins and had coffee on the porch. Then I listened to the Postal Service while eating oatmeal.

To top the morning off I saw a whole flock of Turkeys in my front yard today! I was a little disappointed though, because they didn't look like your teachers make them seem when you're in kindergarten. I always pictured turkeys as a hand print of red and orange paint with some feathers and a pilgrim hat...until now.

Either way, Pilgrim hat or no Pilgrim hat, it was still cool.

I am now on my way to the optometrist for an eye exam and to get some new spectacles, so watch out world! Cause Parker's gonna have 20/20 vision!

They Stripped Me of My Wisdom!

Yesterday I got all four wisdom teeth out plus an impacted tooth that was anchored to my jaw bone. It had to have been one of the worst experiences of my life, so far. Here's a little snapshot of how rediculous I look. Feel free to laugh, cause I have been all day.

yeah. that's funny, right?

I Know It's Nieve But...

I seriously hate Government. I respect that in this country we are free and are overwhelmingly blessed, but I can not stand this ridiculous political race! Not to mention that the Bush Administration, most likely just ruined our lives 20 years down the road from now! When is it ever a good Idea to loan money to the stock market that you don't own, so you borrow it from China, a communist country!? Please, tell me where you get that idea from?

ahhh, well that felt good. sorry for the rant.

Any who, Last night was awesome! I went to go see my friend Wes Black play in his new band Saints Never Surrender, and I think I am becoming an avid fan of hardcore punk! The drums were so powerful and the vocals had so much energy. Check them out! www.myspace.com/saintsneversurrender

Falling Behind

I made it a goal for me to blog once a day or atleast once a week, and it has occured to me that I have failed miserably. But I will not dwell on my short comings, instead I shall post another blog...

Today is the 17th of september, which is two days after the 15th which was my birthday. I can't say that I'm feeling much older, however I did get a cell phone (finally!) which makes me feel really good. It has yet to change my life, but it sure makes it feel better, or easier. But I'm sure that feeling will pass because after all, it's just a phone.

I got to spend the whole day on the 13th with Nikki and it was awesome. We went to ann arbor, which is one of my favorite places in michigan, and she took me out to BD's and bought me stuff at American Apparel. She's probablly the best person to ever exist.

We've been together for just a bout 3 years and there's never a dull moment.

All in all I had a pretty successful brithday.

A Note to Bethany

Since you've been gone Things have been kind of weird. Not weird like there's been a drastic change and every one's different, but it's just weird not to have someone to vent to who'll give me feedback instead of just listen. Even though Nikki does help, you always had so much to say.

Melissa and I are getting a long really well. Way better than I thought we would. But since she works and has school there's not too much time for us to just chill. But it's still cool.

Church is going good too! I love having youth group in the gym! the sound is awesome, the atmosphere is better, and the stage is awesome! I'm like three feet above everyone! I feel like royalty! or close to it at least. There is however, this kind of empty space of energy since you seniors left. It's weird how three or four loud girls make things seem more energetic. I wonder why that is? (haha)

Mammy and Papa should be moving soon, or at least have a house to move into soon. In fact, Mom and Mammy are out house hunting right now! when you come home for Christmas they'll defiantly be gone.

We've been good and we're going to keep your room the same! i actually decided I don't want it anymore. Especially since we're going to have the basement to put my drums in, it won't really matter.

It's good to see that you're having so much fun in California. I hope your not out getting wasted and smoking doobies with your 'too cool for school' Californian friends...yeah I know what goes on ;]

I can't wait to come see you in November with dad! we're defiantly going to chill! I love you, and I hope you're loving the new life!

If You Don't Already Have It...

Go buy "The Origins of Symmetry" by Muse.

One of the best albums I've ever heard.

Let It Rain, Let It Pour.

I created my blog about three days ago but didn't post anything right away, not because I had nothing to say but simply because I didn't want to do a typical ranting blog where I spill my guts about the things I hate most. No, instead I want to talk about something that I thoroughly enjoy!

Rainy/Gloomy Days: Today was one. I can't quite explain my odd fixation with rainy and or gloomy days. It just seems like when ever there is one I am always in such a better mood and I feel significantly artistic. For instance, I just got done writing a poem that really had nothing to do with me. Infact I worte it from a completly different veiw. Which leads me to another topic...

Recently I have been inspired by a friend to think even more out of the box than usual. I've always been a free spirit and a free thinker, but I've really been trying to see things from all different agles. I hate to bring up politics but that's espeacially one thing I've been looking at differently. I Hope it lasts...

Even though I would love to spend the rest of my day outside walking with Nikki ( girlfriend/best friend) I am stuck doing 6 hours of algebra! which is ever so exciting....
But you got to do what you got to do.